This is an account of my first astral journey at a time,when I hardly knew such a thing existed.
It was a plunge into the reality of reincarnation at a time, when I had great reservations towards this idea. It was a spontaneous, compelling and convincing experience, that I did not fully comprehend at the time. I am relating it here as accurately as possible.
I speak the truth, but I may have erred in my interpretation of what I saw. Especially lately, I have come to hold it possible, that the mind, which consented to the Holocaust is a lot more vicious and a lot less compassionate, than I liked to think.
From the time of being a small child I have known a dreadful fear of trains.
We lived on a property that was bordered by a train track at the back and whenever I heard the approaching noise of the steam engine I felt my hair standing on edge. What was even worse, was the clicking of the endless strings of boxcars rolling by. Then I regularly felt like fainting but tried to run and invariably fell down, shinning my knees. -
Many years later, in 1984 in New Zealand I visited Rotorua, a place where the earth boils and a lot of sulfury steam is in the air. I traveled with a befriended American-Jewish couple, my ex-husband was there as well. - It was a beautiful full moon night and my Jewish lady-friend said to me: "Inge, the way you look, you could be Jewish" - I replied from the top of my head: "If I was Jewish, I would have been in Warsaw." My ex-husband said: "That would make sense with your fear of trains, because in Warsaw they had the trains." -
In the instant I felt like I shot out from the top of my head and found myself engulfed in a warm and humid cloud of souls rising above gas-chambers and furnaces. It was the sweetest, happiest feeling I ever felt, all wrapped into a humming vibration in unison through the multitudes of the cloud of connected beings: "HOME !! We're on the way home!" - It was pure joy. Like flying into the heart of God, that's how it felt. -
Then I perceived a slightly shrill and insistent mind stream, self-pitying, lamenting, complaining. I didn't like it and suddenly I was alone in a vast space. I became aware of a group of "people"; they formed a circle, perhaps around 20 old, wise and knowledgeable beings. At this moment they just had focused on the holocaust, but at the time it had been only a possibility in the future and I understood that the meeting must have taken place perhaps 200 or 300 years ago. Their minds were at one with one another, they communicated without speaking. Every-one could read every-one else's mind. They had come to the conclusion that the holocaust was going to happen, if they didn't somehow interfere.
All the attention went to the Jewish member of the group. Should they take measures to divert and mitigate the course of history? It was understood, that interference was the last resort. Normally they would try not to do control the course of events. - I and all others could look into the mind of the Jewish Elder. The first image that came up for him was the picture of Jesus on the cross. The sacrifice and the impact it had on human hearts and with it came the image of the Vatican in Rome. What tremendous power was harvested from that sacrifice. He made his choice and told the group to not interfere but let it happen.
A tremendous shock went through me and I turned my attention back to earth. I felt as if my heart and gut were breaking apart and could not come together again. I understood that the rift between "victims" and "perpetrators" was threatening to split human collective consciousness because the sins, that were to be committed couldn't be forgiven as long as part of it remained a secret. The Germans could never atone for what they were to do in this future. They would be feeling guilty beyond repair, because they did not know, that they were not the only ones responsible for those sins. The world couldn't forgive the Germans, for the people of the world didn't understand how a people could have been so unbelievably inhuman. This degree of bestiality was incomprehensible. The point is, that "normally" this excess of cruelty would not have happened, if it had not been agreed to by the victims, if the future victims would not have wanted to use their suffering for harvesting power.
I threw my whole being back towards the distant earth and felt as if I tried to swim up a waterfall. For a short while I lost track of myself and a little later came to my senses, holding my head and repeating over and over: "I have to come back, I have to make peace (today I think this was quite presumptuous)." - My friends were holding me and kept telling me that everything was alright.
We must be wiser now. I believe, even from that "spiritual" level the Jewish Elder didn't really see the impact his decision would have on the Germans and on the world at large. He only saw the centuries of suffering of his own people, the persecutions and injustice. He wanted to end it, even at a cost to his own people.
Could he have seen the far reaching and far more devastating effects on the rest of humanity? - Perhaps, - but only, if he had been detached enough to really look for long enough, listen patiently enough into the subtle repercussions of his own plan. Yet his desire and, well, selfishness drowned those signals.
Is he to blame? Yes and No. Yes, if we want to play the blaming game, he will be to blame as any other human being without exception is blameworthy in the eyes of God - and No, because blame is only a trip of the mind, blame is one of the dead end streets of consciousness. Blame is the answer to a erroneous question, a question that ought not to be asked, the question of who is guilty. We are all guilty. And if the question is wrong, there cannot ever be a right answer. - We should instead look at the mistakes, take responsibility for correcting them within ourselves, not within others. We only have power over ourselves, not over others.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
Surely, I believe the holocaust made it inevitable for the rest of humanity to join the Germans in committing atrocities. First and foremost the Jews themselves slide deeper and deeper into the depth of the guilt they had thought was reserved only for their enemies. After all, the way God constructed the laws of our existence, we are not allowed to alienate anyone for good and pretend we are better than even only one other person.
Zionism is the worst punishment for the Jews themselves, because it robs them of their innocence. This is the worst thing that can happen to anybody. The suffering from being a victim is small compared to the suffering from a guilty conscience in the face of God.
Perhaps this is the reason, why Jews now are so terrified of death, what a terrible life that must be, being afraid to meet God, being afraid to die.
Actually, it makes me want to put my arms around them and tell them: "If I can forgive you, God will forgive you too."
P.S. and comment from the present time:
The way Israel is behaving in it's own country, it makes the whole world into it's "enemy". Jews were victimised by the Germans (I am German). This has been a terrible crime and we Germans have deeply looked into that, have regretted it, have learnt from it. From growing up as a German in post war Germany I learnt to accept the reality of guilt. I experienced, what happens within the heart and mind, if we face our true guilt. Not a guilt complex, but real guilt. It takes quite some time until this human "ego" subsides, stops making excuses and explanations and just surrenders to the de-construction of itself, accepts its own terrible capacity for evil. In a round about way this has become a blessing, a resource, an "advantage". - (I believe also this has opened the subtle pathway for me to have this experience I described above!) - Now we look up again into the world and realise, actually, all humans are like us, but they do not like to admit to it. Even the Jews themselves are like us and they are the last ones to want to admit it. We all have this capacity to act in evil and inhuman ways without distinction. If we do not admit it, we are likely to repeat the crimes over and over again. Only if we admit to our capacity for evil do we have a chance to sufficiently grow within our spirits to master this bestiality within.
Dear reader, if you have in your own life not committed any atrocities towards other people, you have been lucky. However, I challenge you to investigate your mind, investigate your memory of all the thoughts and feelings that you generated within your mind, even without acting on them. Have you never felt like annihilating something or some-one, never felt like forcing something or some-one, never felt like resolving any issue with violence, be it towards your spouse or your enemy or your children? If you have generated those patterns within your mind, you have contributed to the broadcasting of this obsolete energy, even though you may have had sufficient restraint not to act on it. But this broadcast energy lies like a wave pattern over all of humanity and presses on the minds of other people, less fortunate than you, under greater emotional pressure, in more difficult circumstances than you and it makes it harder for them to act with restraint, makes it easier for them to give in to the desire for violent actions. So, whoever is without sin, may throw the first stone.
P.P.S. August, 23, 2015
The Jews, the Americans, the British, the Japanese, the Chinese, the French, the Swedes, the Russians, the Africans, even the indigenous people, the Dutch, the Spanish, the Arabs, the Indians, the academics, the laborers, the rich, the poor, women and men, famous or unknown, we all share the same potentiality. Many have admitted it to themselves and many have not. Therein lies the only difference, but a vast difference. Only if we admit to our capacity for evil do we have a chance to sufficiently grow within our spirits to master this bestiality within and muster the courage to expose it, judge it and condemn it with impartial justice.
We all started out the same, but now we have arrived at two different positions, according to our free will, according to our choices.
There are the ones, who are honest and just, towards themselves and others, unsparing in their judgement either way.
And there are the ones, who are dishonest and unjust, favoring themselves and oppressing others, one-sided in their judgment to their own advantage.
BE GONE, EVIL SPIRIT, FROM THIS WORLD! - NOW!!
It was a plunge into the reality of reincarnation at a time, when I had great reservations towards this idea. It was a spontaneous, compelling and convincing experience, that I did not fully comprehend at the time. I am relating it here as accurately as possible.
I speak the truth, but I may have erred in my interpretation of what I saw. Especially lately, I have come to hold it possible, that the mind, which consented to the Holocaust is a lot more vicious and a lot less compassionate, than I liked to think.
From the time of being a small child I have known a dreadful fear of trains.
We lived on a property that was bordered by a train track at the back and whenever I heard the approaching noise of the steam engine I felt my hair standing on edge. What was even worse, was the clicking of the endless strings of boxcars rolling by. Then I regularly felt like fainting but tried to run and invariably fell down, shinning my knees. -
Many years later, in 1984 in New Zealand I visited Rotorua, a place where the earth boils and a lot of sulfury steam is in the air. I traveled with a befriended American-Jewish couple, my ex-husband was there as well. - It was a beautiful full moon night and my Jewish lady-friend said to me: "Inge, the way you look, you could be Jewish" - I replied from the top of my head: "If I was Jewish, I would have been in Warsaw." My ex-husband said: "That would make sense with your fear of trains, because in Warsaw they had the trains." -
In the instant I felt like I shot out from the top of my head and found myself engulfed in a warm and humid cloud of souls rising above gas-chambers and furnaces. It was the sweetest, happiest feeling I ever felt, all wrapped into a humming vibration in unison through the multitudes of the cloud of connected beings: "HOME !! We're on the way home!" - It was pure joy. Like flying into the heart of God, that's how it felt. -
Then I perceived a slightly shrill and insistent mind stream, self-pitying, lamenting, complaining. I didn't like it and suddenly I was alone in a vast space. I became aware of a group of "people"; they formed a circle, perhaps around 20 old, wise and knowledgeable beings. At this moment they just had focused on the holocaust, but at the time it had been only a possibility in the future and I understood that the meeting must have taken place perhaps 200 or 300 years ago. Their minds were at one with one another, they communicated without speaking. Every-one could read every-one else's mind. They had come to the conclusion that the holocaust was going to happen, if they didn't somehow interfere.
All the attention went to the Jewish member of the group. Should they take measures to divert and mitigate the course of history? It was understood, that interference was the last resort. Normally they would try not to do control the course of events. - I and all others could look into the mind of the Jewish Elder. The first image that came up for him was the picture of Jesus on the cross. The sacrifice and the impact it had on human hearts and with it came the image of the Vatican in Rome. What tremendous power was harvested from that sacrifice. He made his choice and told the group to not interfere but let it happen.
A tremendous shock went through me and I turned my attention back to earth. I felt as if my heart and gut were breaking apart and could not come together again. I understood that the rift between "victims" and "perpetrators" was threatening to split human collective consciousness because the sins, that were to be committed couldn't be forgiven as long as part of it remained a secret. The Germans could never atone for what they were to do in this future. They would be feeling guilty beyond repair, because they did not know, that they were not the only ones responsible for those sins. The world couldn't forgive the Germans, for the people of the world didn't understand how a people could have been so unbelievably inhuman. This degree of bestiality was incomprehensible. The point is, that "normally" this excess of cruelty would not have happened, if it had not been agreed to by the victims, if the future victims would not have wanted to use their suffering for harvesting power.
I threw my whole being back towards the distant earth and felt as if I tried to swim up a waterfall. For a short while I lost track of myself and a little later came to my senses, holding my head and repeating over and over: "I have to come back, I have to make peace (today I think this was quite presumptuous)." - My friends were holding me and kept telling me that everything was alright.
We must be wiser now. I believe, even from that "spiritual" level the Jewish Elder didn't really see the impact his decision would have on the Germans and on the world at large. He only saw the centuries of suffering of his own people, the persecutions and injustice. He wanted to end it, even at a cost to his own people.
Could he have seen the far reaching and far more devastating effects on the rest of humanity? - Perhaps, - but only, if he had been detached enough to really look for long enough, listen patiently enough into the subtle repercussions of his own plan. Yet his desire and, well, selfishness drowned those signals.
Is he to blame? Yes and No. Yes, if we want to play the blaming game, he will be to blame as any other human being without exception is blameworthy in the eyes of God - and No, because blame is only a trip of the mind, blame is one of the dead end streets of consciousness. Blame is the answer to a erroneous question, a question that ought not to be asked, the question of who is guilty. We are all guilty. And if the question is wrong, there cannot ever be a right answer. - We should instead look at the mistakes, take responsibility for correcting them within ourselves, not within others. We only have power over ourselves, not over others.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
Surely, I believe the holocaust made it inevitable for the rest of humanity to join the Germans in committing atrocities. First and foremost the Jews themselves slide deeper and deeper into the depth of the guilt they had thought was reserved only for their enemies. After all, the way God constructed the laws of our existence, we are not allowed to alienate anyone for good and pretend we are better than even only one other person.
Zionism is the worst punishment for the Jews themselves, because it robs them of their innocence. This is the worst thing that can happen to anybody. The suffering from being a victim is small compared to the suffering from a guilty conscience in the face of God.
Perhaps this is the reason, why Jews now are so terrified of death, what a terrible life that must be, being afraid to meet God, being afraid to die.
Actually, it makes me want to put my arms around them and tell them: "If I can forgive you, God will forgive you too."
P.S. and comment from the present time:
The way Israel is behaving in it's own country, it makes the whole world into it's "enemy". Jews were victimised by the Germans (I am German). This has been a terrible crime and we Germans have deeply looked into that, have regretted it, have learnt from it. From growing up as a German in post war Germany I learnt to accept the reality of guilt. I experienced, what happens within the heart and mind, if we face our true guilt. Not a guilt complex, but real guilt. It takes quite some time until this human "ego" subsides, stops making excuses and explanations and just surrenders to the de-construction of itself, accepts its own terrible capacity for evil. In a round about way this has become a blessing, a resource, an "advantage". - (I believe also this has opened the subtle pathway for me to have this experience I described above!) - Now we look up again into the world and realise, actually, all humans are like us, but they do not like to admit to it. Even the Jews themselves are like us and they are the last ones to want to admit it. We all have this capacity to act in evil and inhuman ways without distinction. If we do not admit it, we are likely to repeat the crimes over and over again. Only if we admit to our capacity for evil do we have a chance to sufficiently grow within our spirits to master this bestiality within.
Dear reader, if you have in your own life not committed any atrocities towards other people, you have been lucky. However, I challenge you to investigate your mind, investigate your memory of all the thoughts and feelings that you generated within your mind, even without acting on them. Have you never felt like annihilating something or some-one, never felt like forcing something or some-one, never felt like resolving any issue with violence, be it towards your spouse or your enemy or your children? If you have generated those patterns within your mind, you have contributed to the broadcasting of this obsolete energy, even though you may have had sufficient restraint not to act on it. But this broadcast energy lies like a wave pattern over all of humanity and presses on the minds of other people, less fortunate than you, under greater emotional pressure, in more difficult circumstances than you and it makes it harder for them to act with restraint, makes it easier for them to give in to the desire for violent actions. So, whoever is without sin, may throw the first stone.
P.P.S. August, 23, 2015
The Jews, the Americans, the British, the Japanese, the Chinese, the French, the Swedes, the Russians, the Africans, even the indigenous people, the Dutch, the Spanish, the Arabs, the Indians, the academics, the laborers, the rich, the poor, women and men, famous or unknown, we all share the same potentiality. Many have admitted it to themselves and many have not. Therein lies the only difference, but a vast difference. Only if we admit to our capacity for evil do we have a chance to sufficiently grow within our spirits to master this bestiality within and muster the courage to expose it, judge it and condemn it with impartial justice.
We all started out the same, but now we have arrived at two different positions, according to our free will, according to our choices.
There are the ones, who are honest and just, towards themselves and others, unsparing in their judgement either way.
And there are the ones, who are dishonest and unjust, favoring themselves and oppressing others, one-sided in their judgment to their own advantage.
BE GONE, EVIL SPIRIT, FROM THIS WORLD! - NOW!!
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Beautiful. A clear path to enlightenment from an enlightened mind and spirit...:)
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